I would not wish this

I would not wish this on my worst enemy
You know I must be desperate to be broadcasting this on a weblog, but I am. My husband who prior to June 22 was my flesh and blood, my love, my best friend, partner and other half has left me with no explanation besides “he cannot stand to be around me”. He cannot “stand to look at me” he told me. How beautiful does a woman feel when her husband cannot stand the sight or her? My children are wondering when Dad is coming home. I have no idea what happened.
I think I have had the nightmare a few times when my husband would say “you, why would I love you” and I would cry in my sleep. My husband would wake me up when he heard me cry and tell me that my dream was silly. Now I am not waking up and God doesn’t seem to be hearing my prayers…